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I received a news i have been wanting to listen for some time.. and had recently given up hope.... However, the verdict was in my favour.. i should "ideally" have been elated... Yipeeee... Hi fives.. Way to go.. However, i felt like, Phew.. alright... i am thankFULL... and now what???
Keep climbing this path , my mind told me... you need to carry as much as you can now... you can rest later...
However, the soul needs something else... many other things.. but not here... not this... i cant walk for long on this path without feeding my needs... another road also doesn’t seem visible...
Can Carpe Diem be clouding the other options... Am I being consumed by the vice called “INDIFFERENCE”

Elie Wiesel states the following in his speech “The Perils of Indifference”
“What is indifference? Etymologically, the word means "no difference." A strange and unnatural state in which the lines blur between light and darkness, dusk and dawn, crime and punishment, cruelty and compassion, good and evil. Can one possibly view indifference as a virtue? Is it necessary at times to practice it simply to keep one's sanity, live normally, enjoy a fine meal and a glass of wine, as the world around us experiences harrowing upheavals?
Of course, indifference can be tempting -- more than that, seductive. It is so much easier to look away from victims. It is so much easier to avoid such rude interruptions to our work, our dreams, our hopes. It is, after all, awkward, troublesome, to be involved in another person's pain and despair. Yet, for the person who is indifferent, his or her neighbor are of no consequence. And, therefore, their lives are meaningless. Their hidden or even visible anguish is of no interest. Indifference reduces the Other to an abstraction. “

Our circumstances, most of the times, provoke us to react in a manner we think best for our ”own” survival. And then the chain of events force us to live with our choices.. When things turn up different (better or worse) than our expectations, we blame not ourselves, but the situations we are engulfed within..

Enjoying each day as it comes seems to actually have its perils… I have got indifferent to the paths which open up at every nook and corner… Maybe that is why I am not even considering the possibility that something I need, might be already available on the path that I have chosen…. or instead of looking around for it, am I too busy with other things such as climbing.. ..

INDIFFERENCE will find an excuse. Love will find ....