...kinare

Ever since I listened to this song, i was flooded with thoughts and the urge to write a post.

Sometimes, after the experience of attaining a particular set goal, we wish that the close & special people who were along with us in this journey would choose to continue with us to the next destination. But alas, they have done what they can and now they seek to move away. 

We can’t bear to let this happen. Especially, if it’s the person who we think we need and cannot function without. It’s a dreadful feeling to know that the ones you love, no longer need you, like you still do them. We don’t think we can stay afloat, ever again. It feels like drowning, gasping for breaths, contraction.

But you need to, not just because there is so much more to life or there will be others worthy of your love. But because the journey has always been, just about you. 

People will come and go, as and when they feel like. However, there will be just one person who is going to stay all through your life. Its not your parents, siblings, spouse, children or beloved friends. It’s YOU, yourself.  

It’s always going to be you that you have to rely on. And that’s scary. What if you screw up? Again? with your choices of people and decisions. Then you still, will have yourself. That is who you ever had from the beginning and that is who will remain with you.

Asking others for guidance during the journey is only to figure out the choices that are available since we all have limited perspectives. Whichever path we choose, it will eventually lead us to the destination, to the shore, which strangely happens to be none other than, ourselves.

When you listen to a story, you connect the dots in a completely different way from any other person listening to the same story. Similarly, every event that occurs in your life is random and has only the meaning and connections that you choose to give them. Everything is personal. And that’s what makes it so special, it’s all about you. 

The sinking feeling of lose, the desperation is to force us to sort out our own unique way of coping & letting go of everything that felt necessary and see what remains. When we look carefully enough, we are going to find only more of ourselves.

And above all, the contraction seems to be a pre-requisite for expanding our entire being, our very own shores, kyon ki..

Khud hi to hain hum, kinaare     (We ourselves are, the shores)
Kaise honge kam, kinaare          (How can we be any less than, the shores)
Hain jahaan hain hum, kinare     (Where we are right now are, the shores)
Khud hi to hain hum