Ser-uhn-dip-i-tee

Seraph: Did you always know?
The Oracle: Oh, no. No, I didn't. But I believed... I believed.

Yesterday as i watched this last scene from one of my favourite movies , i couldnt help recollecting... that despite all the layers of emotions i had experienced.. the magic of the word "Serendipity" is something i beleived in.. i could never explain it... but then heart has reasons , reasons cant explain...

-- you don't reach Serendib by plotting a course for it. You have to set out in good faith for elsewhere and lose your bearings ... serendipitously."

(John Barth, The Last Voyage of Somebody the Sailor)

i hoped it would happen.. and now that it has happened... my fears also seem to have changed.. My fear is to have i might have let go of these moments... which i dont wanna for anything in this world... But i also know, that the balance has to happen.... and it will happen.. and that scares me more.. it seems to refrain me from enjoying the present moments... So i seem to have to keep saying to myself.. Carpe Diem, and ask myself - What would i do if i were not afraid?
I would be as crazy as always....

And as i read the tagine of "Serendipity" - Can once in a lifetime happen twice?

Well, Oh, no. No, I dont know. But I believe... I believe.