Clara "Mac" McMillen (in the movie, Kinsey) said"I hate to think of myself as conventional."
And April Wheeler (in Revolutionary Road) said
I wanted IN. I just wanted us to live again. For years I thought we've shared this secret that we would be wonderful in the world. I don't know exactly how, but just the possibility kept me hoping. How pathetic is that? So stupid. To put all your hopes in a promise that was never made. Frank knows what he wants, he found his place, he's just fine. Married, two kids, it should be enough. It is for him. And he's right; we were never special or destined for anything at all.
Learning of the day:
To not hate "myself" for being conventional, normal...
Coz if i do, then i will struggle with myself, like April did.. Watching her felt like, if i were to be Alice through the looking glass and if i had stepped into April's shoes, then there wouldnt be a single situation, not even the teeny weeniest of them, in which i would not have reacted like she did.. God save me, but it did feel like looking into a ...
7 comments:
It is either your blog is too abstract or I have lost the power of insight...:P
Neither, i was just purging.. when reality bit me.. :)
Hmmm... Same feelings... being a mediocrity is so fearsome... :(
G, how do you define spl? does spl mean unmarried and doing what you want to do? are you sure those ppl are really happy... iv been in this place that you mention and i sometimes find myself as conventional as a woman can be.. but i have come to believe a miraculous thing that i refused to accept.. its was called Providence and Acceptance:) it has filled my life with lots of love and contentment. really is there anything more we need than the above mentioned?
Archie, Spl to me does not mean being unmarried & doing what i want to do, inorder to be happy..
And my faith in Providence (Serendipity) has only increased with my wedded bliss..
The feeling of being special,from within, has been subdued from sometime. I am allowing certain constraints (such as time, health and money) to stop me from doing and being what i would like to do..
The movie, depicted a similar situaions of restlessness by the Protoganist, which i felt.. Her struggle from hope and dreams ended in despair and defeat.. And i connected to it...
at the risk of being called an irritant and insensitive, id like to propose another thought..
disconnect with what you want to be can never happen if you are completely passionate about it, irrespective of you working on it or not. what is required is patience, the very belief in Providence which calmingly smiles at you says.. It's not time yet. hold on..
Hmm... Alright.. Will hold on.. :)
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