R U Free now? When u get time call me. I need 2 talk to you about something personal.
If someone thought this was funny and cute... Then let me get loud and clear.. IT WAS NOT.
Coz when i received this sms from a dear friend... i tried to put some time aside and call back a couple of times.. get asked, hey whats happend, why are you trying to call me.... and bluntly informed that i had to scroll to the end of this SMS FORWARD and read......
"Arabian sea is 4 Sale
Shall we both BUY it?"
So did i waste my time... - "Yes, absolutely", i was told
Now i guess i am supposed to laugh it off.... but honestly i didnt find it funny...
Coz i totally agree with someone who said that "It is a sin to waste someone else's time..."
When i read the first line of the sms... i took THE effort to be there for my friend... why should i consider it an effort, when i so proudly claim to myself that one of goals i am tying to reach is effortlessness... The other person should not even get a hint of the efforts and troubles i take to be there for them , to make their moments with me memorable and worthwhile... it shouldnt be a "burden", a "task" or an "attempt" to try and make them like me, please me or be nice, becoz i am nice... I want it to be so a part of me, like my second skin... it should never hurt like it did once, i should not feel i wasted my time on something that didnt deserve the attention i gave... I wanna be unconditional, but please dont make me "waste" it for no reason.. i am putting in a certain amout of thoughtful effort in trying to be what i wanna be..... To be blind even when i see, coz ideally it shouldnt matter.... and to focus my capabilties, where there is a need.... So for heaven's sake, dont take me and my time for granted.... You can use it, dont abuse it.....
In the recent past , i have realised the power of humour and wit.. coz i have seen it work amazingly than anything else. atleast in my life.... Humour even saved me from trying to kill myself once.. coz even when the vey thought entered my mind.. i laughed it off.. and thats WHY i THINK i am alive right now.....
So why am i angry..... the point being.. it would have been effortless when there was a purpose.. i dont mind giving all that i can, when i understand the reason.. or atleast i even if my friend told me that they missed me and wanted some attention and time from me.. i can so understand that feeling too....
But here there seemed to be no reason or feeling... jus a forward... or should i call it backward...
I dont want to tolerate it anymore.... i dont wanna be indifferent to this waste of time...
Its MY time.. aint i already wasting it enough.. that you too are trying to waste it now.....
I didnt have a hundred things in life to accomplish in the few moments that i spent on my friend... But when you are slapped with the fact that someone just wasted your time, for no particular reason, it isnt fair....
Maybe you dont think so.. Big deal, you say.... Woman, couldnt you jus scroll down, instead of crying out loud for a forward...
I didnt, my mistake.... i should have seen that this msg is from YOU and therefore ignored it... or i should be SENSIBLE enough to always scroll below even when you ask me to give you a call...
You say, it was funny...
Well honey, it wasn't, for me.....
5 comments:
Gorgeous, wat can i Say, Its neither yor fault nor the other person's... just the moment was not right...... All I can say is he cud have responded without hurting ur feelings when he realised you did not take the SMS as a joke.... But again may be he was not on a good mood...
Agreed.. But the fact that he/she is in a bad mood doesnt give them the right to spoil someone else day.... Anyways, Thanks for reading my frustrations and trying to make me see the other side... Congratz for being the sole commentator of my blogs... :)
if u wanna be unconditional... forgiveness is the first step... obviously not an easy thing to do... but then, ae you nor defeating your own purpose of being unconditional by "expecting" people to understand and not "waste" your time...
look at the bright side of it, your being a diligent friend and juping out to call them at the first line of the SMS only made them smile/laugh...
His/her prank worked :-)
just to add to the last Anon comment, is it not good humor, and ove to be able to laugh at yourself...
while you may have jumped the gun and tried to be there, it only shows you did what you would normally do... dont feel hurt at being yourself...
of course the world is full of thorns (most of them, in a bad mood - as Ram has put it), does that mean you would want to become one too?
food for thought...
Yes.. In trying to being unconditional, i should not expect them to understand... But i feel, sometimes, i should let the other person know the frustration they caused me... I dont "expect" them to understand.. If they understand,
lovely... if they dont, i shall give a big sigh, thats all.. Letting the other person know these petty frustrations , sometimes helps in not holding them within.. coz maybe one day i could become numb to them... only because i didnt let them know that it hurt...
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